THE stress Of the day october 8, 2014
Today I just am way too stressed. I need it's not on my fault. It's the drama, the long nights. Some days I wish I could just have a break. Some peace and quiet. But that's life I guess. No stop, do this do that. Today's life is a fast life. A life of being judged and hoping you're on trend. A time of beautiful people. Now I'm not saying that's a bad thing, I like dressing up like any other person. Or I'm not saying it's bad to follow the crowd. I'm just saying I wish there were more individuals. More people who don't care. Who are here to live a fun life. I'm just happy that at least my friends are original. Because sometimes I want a break from all the stiff necked people for the fakes. Because to me they're like a dog trapped in a straitjacket forced to be normal or boring.
wHaT is the DIFFERENCE between living and existing nov.5.14
If I were to die now at a young age would people remember me for me... Or for my feelings, my accomplishments, my humor, in my music. Am I really living? Or just existing... In life I feel I will never really live, for our modern world is way to judgefull. Everyone watching, watching your every move. Waiting for your real feelings to come out. Just so they can embarrass you and expose it to where you just want to keep yourself in. Where nobody can pick at your life. Where you could have your sanity. Because in my mind no one can hurt me... In my mind I am allowed to have my opinions and my own judgment. Living in this society is nearly impossible. Because that is what our society is into. People existing in others image, but in a way that gives comfort to some people. As you can tell from many religions... Living in the image of the righteous.